ALOHA

Its been a HUGE while, and that sudden thought of blogging bashed in.
Having a headache right now, just ended work at about 3 hours back (12-8pm)

Time check: 10:54PM

Life has been giving me some thoughts lately.
How fragile it is, how strong it is, how miraculous it is, how beautiful it is, and how harsh it can be.
I've concluded this bcoz, I'm broke.

I was just flying around the world this year, starting with Bangkok, ended with Bangkok as well.
2nd: Hong kong.
3rd: Taipei.
4th: Perth.

FUN TIMES. Really. (there were really bad too, like how you shouldn't travel with parents) 

Then it came to a part which i'm most afraid of, the end of all of it.

2014 has been pretty crazy. Its scary, it was fun, it was the hellll of my life.

Dip dye pink hair? Tried. Plan an entire 8D7N trip alone? Tried. ENTER A UNI? TRIED AND HARDLY BREATHING.

Have got an assignment to submit and dreading it.
Tmrw  there's group meeting.
Tues another group meeting.
Wed is my treatment (god i need to watch my diet)
Thurs (blank)....Maybe a swim
Fri is school from 830AM (its like 5am to me)
Sat/Sun workworkworkworkworkineedmoneyworkworkwork

Basically i feel dead. Where did my exciting life go?

And then we will come down to one thing.

THE FUN COMES AFTER THE SUFFER

I wish i could believe in that, i really do. But i have no motivation, which is really sad.

Procrastination has eaten me well.

And do i really have no luck at all? I just wanted to win something i want so badly, but where's the chance?
Nothing seems to be going my way.
While people are all busy living their life to the fullest, doing the things they love.
What i love, always doesn't seems to be legit.
What's wrong with loving dramas/animes/mangas/kpop? If i could, i want those as profession.
I no longer care being judged or not, this world is as crazy as it is.

I hope my wish comes true.

♥ 11:10 PM